it's getting worst...? it is...?hahaha.. lately ... exactly last 3 weeks... almost everyday ...avery night axtually...i felt like my stomouch is having a worm...moving and playing aroung my womb... what the right.... but day by day.. it getting worst because i felt hurt anyway..it hurts me..i couldnt stand it... always put some "minyak' wish it will getting better... but then.. nothing change...seing others happy woth someone love them ..care about them... do complete what ever they want.. make me feel jealosy and a liltle sad... not because im alone... i have my parents... i do have sibling... and 2 nieces who always make me got headache for sure...but then is this feel is kind of the lonely feeling... i am the lonely loner.. :)

i cant believe that i need to stay up... most of my days staying up.. and look at the books.. and not to forget my lappy and of cos... but then i felt like.. oh god .. i culdnt stand it anymore.. i just need rest... after human resource paper ends... i ddint feel relief or what.. just feeling the kind of happy may be.. o yeah ..i didnt update for quite a long tyme... continue the last story about the cgpa's ..guys u know what happened to all of us.. becos of the muLot masin.. we all still managed to get dean list..even mira get dean list for the first time ever... but then 3 of us get same cgpa.. and it oon the par...3.5 for us.. get ... ' try to get better this tyme.. the sem will end in two weeks more.. sayonara.. :P

today is the day that i really wanted it to be... really want this day come.. and today already end few minutes ago...i feel relief..satisfied and calm...smile..eat alot..talking bluff....im really happy...my dad bought the iphone..1 for him and another 1 for my mama.. she really xcited,..coz she can use to recite alquran with the translate.. high of technology...full of mitery... cant imagine that i already play games using that iphone.. how ever it quite expensive....272727.99 yen...since my dad bought it at japan..:) i cant believe that im not going to malacca tomorrow but to low yat.. we are going to buy 2 laptops .. 1 for my lil sis and another for my lil bro..thanx to Allah...mam said she wanna give me 3k... to represent her thankfull.... ya Allah..thanx for everything... :)

in front of her.. i just smile even we never met for this 11 years.. ohooo just meet her at this ym or blogging... 1 of my schoolmate... my xclassmate is exactly...promise to go there with me.. but now im xcited for nothing... my gudness ... im pretty sure HE know about it better.,.. but im really hope that i could be there pls... with my fren mayb..

living in this world .. sometime can be hurt....but most of the time is happy ending.....i hope i could make it.. i want go to genting this saturday... but it will really make me tired since i need to rushing from kl to malacca then back to kl... hope it can be ...my entry become short ..muahaha

ye ker nothing to say.. to many things that i like to say..but when think about it again and again.. mad me become mad suddenly...? whay is that thing axtually?i didnt mention bout it yet? relative is part of family, of course i did not say it wrong bout how u used it to other people bye using " kite kan sedara" .... having a relative like this i rather than be alone in this world...aku mencik kamukk semua... kesian kat maid yang kene dera ...kuang ajo gile...

i dont know what exactly happened to me last night, my headeache getting worst.seriously thought that i would be probelm woke iup in the morning .. and for sure it is.. i asked my lil sis to picit my head with that thing.. suppose to be, this morning was my turn to cover my sis, since whe need to be at putrajaya cobver another person,, replacement to the replacement,, quite complicTED.. but when i fell down, the sis need to cover my place at the first place... and happend to be, today was the day that my lil bro have their tournament with kanu, im quite regret that i couldnt say chayok or gambate or even gud luck to him,, due to my sickness. nothing to say.. but i'll work today.. shift malam..:) and everything went's wrong for today..

i was stuck in the middle of the crowd,thinking that i still can go on but know its looked dark.today is jun 4, until when should i wait to make sure they annouce it properly ..if not using web page may b by mail. few days ago or may be last month i kept telling my self i would not care about the result since i didnt make it properly while exam,but now i keep looking their new news regarding the result.at first i was surprised when they already annouce that student can check their result but unfortunately its only for foundation student since i am not included the happy face turned to gloomy and moody face. i want the vice cancelor award as i like to show the people arround me whom before keep point their fingers to us .. looked down on us especially to me.the only way to get the award is to get dean list for every semester.luckyly for last2 semester i still can survive but this sem looked difficult to me. even the result did not annoce yet but i already can estimate it by my performance at exam time,its ok if the cgpa's drop but plz god let me still in the dean list.. this is i always keep praying so it can b come true. i told my jr because our last pointer just a like.. i got liltle bit higher which is 0.02 than her. how ever she's pretty brilliant student,study hard at the middle of night, most of my jr follow me, i not a role mode but a destroyer for them,sorry sis im not a good senior. the jr had told me , sis if you said its ok with cgpa's if drop, so it is still ok it you get just in line..oh god,, i dont think that is what im thinking of lol... what the la this kid..at least higher larrr..than before...:) today i still can smile.. but what will happen tomorrow..?

that day was the first time i wrote something is this blog ...to make it short it already almost 5 years..life is short.. if we start it late u'll regret.. so start every thing now.. hopefully u wont regret...

just like me.. i hope.. really hope that i wont regret anything in my life..sometimes we make a decision but it cant be the best decision for us..from the beginning we always dream something nice.. sweet to have to achieve even we dont deserve it at all but its ok rite even to dream..at least we already achieve it in our imagination if not in reality...

so what with the dream?...for me dream is a first step.. every body have their own dream.. but how u achieve it is the story to tell.something boombastic,,something unreal to others but it just small matter to us to achieve it.. so we kind of people who have deja vu may be.. or supernatural person..muhahha.. kidding..

axtually i dont really get it what is in my mind right now.. but my fingers keep moving from 1 alphabet to another.. what actually that i am really want to write is.. what actually the main reason why i bring the date back..

ilike write something nice to read .. something unrealistic but people keep reading and asking is it real .. i wanna feel it... but u know.. im not a good narator neither a story teller.. this is me.. and i really like the way i am..people will think.. what the fish wit this lady.. what wrong with her.. out of her mind or what.. but it doesnt matter with me..as long as i can write here.. with full of joy.. and last but not least have a nice day..:)

fuh...bape lame erk aku tak update blog nih...aku try gak nak buka.. but there are an error message..ermm maleh arr aku nak layan...

this month will end in a few weeks.. but i keep on counting till the end of the month...? why...? i mised my parents lot.. even it only few weeks after their flight ... but now im currently missed them so much...

the burden keep increased day by day .. i couldnt stop it... but somehow i manage to handle it.thanx to my sis for the help.. and really tahnk god that my nanny is not here with the uncle yang mmg i couldnt stand him.. looks soooo annoying...

its not me who hate him.. im just think that all he do is not the best way.. at least ask me as the owner of house.. im not child anymore.. so plz dont ignore me when it related with all thing in MY house...

i hope he read my bllog so he know what i want to say to him.. even it not polite at all.. but at least he know.....sis..plz... once trust me and stand by my side....:)anyway thank god miss CC still on my side.. we keep ngumpat about him.. he used my car.. its ok.. bcoz i want used my mom car.. so its still fair..but when he used MY money.. it not ok anymore... but actually he took rm4... but can u plz ask permission or what from the owner and even its only 1 cen...

 

sayonara.. that's all for new entry..heheh